If you can’t find joy within yourself, with the Lord alone as your company, how will you ever find it with anyone else? People cannot make you happy; not really. Not even the person we admire most can save us from ourselves; the novelty of their presence wears off, and we inevitably sink back into that familiar realization. We cannot escape ourselves. Why do we try to? Being loved needs to begin with us; we need to discover how God loves us; and finally, we need to love ourselves. Identify those areas that you haven’t made peace with. Pray within those feelings. It burns to revisit them, but they will never go away unless you do.